This blog, much like me, doesn’t know what it wants to be. We both meander through time unsure of ourselves and our surroundings, certain only of the infinite possibilities that abound in the world but too apathetic and self-conscious to grab at them.
In 2008 I (Jake Dean) quit the meaningless rigours of suburban football to concentrate on actually living – spending more time on the coast and with my friends. When my relationship fell through in 2009 the only thing keeping me at home was my job as a journalist at a local newspaper. Logically, that was the next domino to fall. Liberated and with a healthy bank account I took off in June 2009 and lasted a year abroad, spending two months surfing in Indonesia; a month in Mexico via a week-long stint in LA and San Diego; and a month in Central America (Guatemala, Nicaragua and Costa Rica) before settling down in Canada for seven months to work and snowboard (and surf surprisingly). Ten days in Kauai on the way home was a little treat to myself for being such a good boy and finally doing something noteworthy in my life, albeit belatedly.
Before that journey I had only been to Indonesia (Bali mainly) a few times, Borneo for a few weeks about five years earlier and the US with my family when I was about 12 years old (where the seed for travel was probably sown within me – thanks ma and pa). Arriving home in July last year I was no closer to knowing what the hell to do with my life – all I knew was I had to get out of little old Adelaide again to see some more cool shit.
And that brings us to the now – only weeks away from the bubbling cultural cauldron that is South America and still completely unsure of my place in this world. Come to think of it, the only thing I’m sure of is that I’m unsure of everything.
Fearinenglish combines the angst of Holden Caulfield with the intense longing for adventure of Sal Paradise. A travel blog for those who aren’t sure whether they should be traveling and a place to air my muddled thoughts.
P.S. Fearinenglish – weird name I know. For an explanations of its origins visit my old blog by clicking here.